Yesterday I posted a very passive aggressive meme on Instagram. It's not like me to be passive aggressive, I've always taken pride on being direct, honest and full on aggressive if need be. But yesterday I was really stressed out at work, blame was being put on me for something I didn't do, and I was told that this specific manager was waiting for me to mess up on something. I'm not friends with this person on any social media, so there is no way that my passive aggressiveness message will get to her.
But yesterday, more than anything, I wanted to go to an hour long zumba class, followed by a 5 mile run. Unfortunately, my schedule didn't allow it. Instead, I rewarded my stress with food and singing really loud in my car. I also might have accidentally singed up for another race...
I say rewarded with food, because stress makes me think of ways to take care of myself, and in this case, the only thing that was going to hold me together was melty cheese and warm bread. I went for the boli!
In the past, I used to beat myself up about stressful situations, my thoughts ran to "you suck, you are the worst, you are awful". But I have given up those thoughts, they were not helping me and they were causing damage. Now I turn to thoughts such as "how can this be fixed? What is the next step to get this resolved? What can I do differently next time? and What is the next race I can sign up for?".
Part of the healing is also blasting music on my way home and singing as loud as possible to random songs. Not always angry songs, sometimes super happy merengue music, Latin Rock or random greek music.
At end of the day, an issue with a file or a report doesn't matter. There is many who wished to have half of the comforts of my life, I'm not going to be ungrateful and claim that a file audit or a report are the end of my life.
How was your beautiful Tuesday ?
What do you like to eat when you are stressed?
What is your calming distance?