I feel that I have only been talking about running this week, as if that is all I ever do! Ja ! Running is only about 5% of what I do in one week.
I have been really busy at work, home and driving to this places. Got hit with double audits this week, and with training a new employee. If I could have somebody else drive me around, I would have so much free time to read and nap.
So this week I had a close emotional meltdown at work... nothing work related, of course. I received an email from my son's teacher reminding me and his father, that we are both good for nothing, shitty parents who send their kid to school without his glasses and without his reading log... Well, she didn't say the "good for nothing, shitty parents" part, but that is how I read it.
I got really angry, because I have asked his father to pack the glasses every single day last week, and asked him to drop them off at school 3 times just last week! and now here we were, being called shitty parents, sending our son to school without everything he needs to learn, WORSE, without his glasses!
My first instinct was to reply to the teacher and rat out my son's Dad. Tell her that I was a good mom, that we have been reading, that I have been gently reminding his father about the glasses every day for the last week, and that he has ignored those reminders. But then I realized it was also my fault, for not driving to his house and demanding the glasses myself.
So I went for a long walk, and cried. Because as hard as I am trying to be the best mom I can be, but I'm not willing to kick down a door for my son's glasses. I want to keep the peace with his father, and I don't make demands, but that affects my son and his schooling. But I also told myself that I cannot depend on him to help me take care of him, that this, like many other things in my life, I have to take care of myself.
I got back and emailed the teacher the truth. The glasses and reading log got lost on the transition between houses, and that I will make myself a note to double and triple check for this things at transitions moving forward. Even if I have to tattoo a pair of glasses to my hand! And that I will be buying my son an additional pair of glasses. Because my son's education is very important!
I'm reversing this to DRAFT in a few days, I can't risk my son finding this in later years, but I needed to get it out of my system to get over it.